Is life on this earth painful for you? Do you ever feel as if you do not belong here? Do you ever feel as if you have been hiding your real Self all your life? Do you ever have to deny your real knowing in order to “get along”? Do you ever feel as if even those closest to you do not know the real you? Do you think of yourself as a failure? Do you feel as if you never experience real joy? Do you yearn for a place that feels like “home”?
If these questions resonate within you and touch your heart and soul at their deepest place, you may be an Adult Indigo, still carrying, and suffering from the emotional wounds of childhood. For you, life on this Earth has probably been, and continues to be, confusing and difficult. Your inherent knowing is not acknowledged. Your intuitive wisdom is not honored. Your felt-sense of experience is not embraced.
Almost no one understands or appreciate you. You try and try to “go along” and to “get along”, but, in your own eyes, almost everything you do fails. The only way you have been able to exist in this world is to deny the essence of your Being. Your Light has been dimmed, and your greatness has been diminished; you feel invisible. You feel that you are cut off from your Source and your Spirit. You feel alone and lonely.
And you wonder why you feel sadness and depression. The Indigo children, who are born into Earth as pure Light channels of God, remember more and more eternal knowledge, secrets from the Other Side and hold the God-vision of a perfect world. These “old souls”, have come to embody a massive paradigm shift for our entire universe and to lead us toward ever-expanding world consciousness and a perfected world.
Because of their inherent wisdom, knowing, and vision, they often have a hard time getting along in this world that does not understand or appreciate their uniqueness and their special gifts. This great dissonance between their perfect knowing and this Earth experience causes them tremendous pain and anguish. Their parents, teachers and society as a whole misunderstand this pain. Most try to help in more traditional and conventional ways, but fail. The attempts to heal on the rational, intellectual and cognitive level, do not work. The Indigo’s pain is the existential angst and loneliness that is caused by their separation and disconnection from God; by the dissonance they feel between their knowing of what a perfected world can be, and their experience of the world as it is. Their emotional pain resides on the spiritual, energetic, soul level, and that is where their pain must be healed.
You, the Adult Indigo, at the deepest level, resonate with all the characteristics and the emotional pain of the Indigo Children. Today, more than 80% of the children being born are Indigos. The Indigos first started coming into this Earth at the rate of perhaps 5%-10% per year, right after WWII. You were one of these Indigos. And there were not many like you when you were young! During your childhood, you may have had a unique perspective on life that was probably not shared by members of your family, by classmates and friends or by teachers and coaches.
You “got it” far more swiftly than anyone else, you may have felt “out of place” and wondered what you were doing here. You may have felt constantly “out of sync” with the rest of the world. You were a visitor in a foreign land, questioning the whys of things that made no sense to you. On a spiritual, energetic level, you felt the pain of the dissonance between your knowing and your everyday reality. But, your spiritual woundings were unrecognized and unhealed, and you have carried those spiritual woundings into adulthood.
It is those unhealed spiritual woundings that are a cause of your angst and anguish; the cause of your discomfort with having to function in this world; the cause of your dissonance with being in body and being on Earth. As an early Indigo, you quickly learned that the world could not handle the full truth of who you are, the full expression of your Point of Essence. (POE) Your POE is the place where you are connected to God. Your POE is the place of your “I Am Presence”, your “GodSelf”. Your POE is the place where ego melts away, and where you are your unique ultimate Self. Your POE is the truth of who “You” are.
As an early Indigo, you intuitively understood that if you were to survive and function in this world, you had to hide your true Essence. So, for most of your life, you have been disconnected from your “true Self”.
Perhaps if you visit the website of Ken Page you will find some help. I Have.